It Doesn't Smell Like Youth

I go to the gym as much as possible and most of the times I shower there and head home. I always try to get a locker closest to the showers to avoid any type of men awkwardness I might find on the way to the showers, but to my luck this 65something year old man always gets a locker near me. I believe he has difficulty hearing or could be a bit--crazy, if I may say so? Point is, that one time when I was changing a bit of a deaf argument happened:

Old Man: "WHAT?"
Me: "huh? nothing"
Old Man: "THANK YOUUUU"
Me: "What?"
Old Man: "THANK YOU"
Me: "No problem..."

And I went out to the pool. After I came back to change and shower he was still in the locker rooms and apologized(for what happened earlier followed by some excuse) and I just said it was okay. He asked me if I was a swimmer and I said no then he asked me if I worked out a lot to which I responded that I work out as much as I can and he said "that's good" and that was it.

I've been seeing him around lately and what I'm going to say will be one of the most messed up things I think I'll ever say but--he grosses me out, just the way he smells. He doesn't smell like a dirty, sweaty old man. The odor he gives off is very weird. It's smells--like old and it makes me gag and no, I'm not exaggerating. I hold my breath every time he's there and do my business as fast as possible.

But then the guilt comes over me. What if someone does that to me when I'm old? When my skin is flaccid and I have bags under my eyes? When I look at all the 20 year olds with their toned and muscular bodies? And say "I used to be one of them"(whenever I achieve a hot bod, of course).

The fear of becoming old is one thing that scares me the most in life, and unfortunately is one of things I can't stop. I don't want to smell old, I don't want to make an 18 year old gag, I don't want to wrinkle and be--flaccid. I want to be forever young.

All this work put into the gym, the annoyance of having braces, the obsession with having a killer jawline, being taller than 5'11", being the man I want to be in my 30s, buying any electronic I want, dating as many guys as I want, where will all this go when I'm 65? Yes, yes that's what makes life, I know! Moving on, and accepting changes and things you can't change. Remolding your life to the changes of technology, society and just shaping yourself while the word reshapes itself.

Like I said, I'm a very self contradictory person. Every time I think about me being 65 I try to make myself better by thinking that maybe by that stage of life I will have accomplished most of the things I want in life, I'd be happy with the things I did in my youth and maybe being young and firm won't matter, but...don't you want to be young forever and wear leather at night? I do.

P.S: I mean 65 and up.