As I've mentioned before, I've found summers to be a block of time that helps me make a transition between different phases of my life. It helps to realize how much or how little I've changed in the previous school year--and I talk about school because is where I spend most of my weeks and days. I've always said that it's not much what age you are, but what grade you are in.
Summer O9:
I've come to realize that friendships grew stronger in some aspects. Special, unbrakeable bonds have become weak and loose. Maybe they have always been this way but I've barely come to realize how "loose" and "tangled" these bonds are. Surprisingly, I haven't been wanting to go out as much as I thought I wanted to. I've really enjoyed staying home, catching up on missed tv series, unwatched movies, and video games. I haven't worked out and haven't watched what and how much I eat. This, summer is to relax, to forget about clothes, muscles, sizes, responsabilities, parties and worries--because I have a full year to complete these.
I'm very dissapointed in a special someone. Maybe we are walking different paths, and we're finally pursuin towards our own separate lives--own decisions, own plans, own friends. But I least expected to feel a little bit more integrated in the plans this person has made. Maybe it's a new phase--and all the excitemen of new gained liberty hasn't settled down yet, but when it does, I don't know if I'll still be here.
Currently Listening To: "Knocked Up" by Kings of Leon feat. Lykke Li.
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