To A Friend:

I used to consider you one of my best friends, and I still do because I still think about how much you'd make me laugh and what advice you gave me.
You are a bitch--you are, but a funny one who always listened to me and a bitch I loved being around.
The other time I went to Buffalo Exchange Tempe, and I saw the public speaker that went to Alhambra--remember? Gauges? down to earth? I thought about texting you but I didn't know if you were mad or if you are mad or if you would even reply.
I know things won't be the same even if we started speaking again. I believe that one of the reasons why I don't want to get into an argument with you it's because at some point, I still care about you, and maybe, but maybe one day I hope we could be friends again.
Things change, and people change. This was supposed to be our year, prom, senior lock in, etc. All those things best friends do together.
I want to say I'm sorry in person, but I can't and I don't know the reason why because in my point of view I haven't done anything wrong. I don't expect you to say sorry either, because I don't think you have done something wrong.
Sure you have things I don't like about you, just like you have things you hate about me. I know it will be akward in person like it is already, and we don't say hi to each other and avoid each other looking at each other. You'll move on and I'll move on, but I will wonder what you will be up to.
And we won't over come this because I'm too proud, you are too proud, and we are too proud for each other and I know you might go and tell other people how much I need a life or how pathetic I am because I wrote this in a blog, and I hope you don't.
I haven't changed but my goals and priorities have this last couple of weeks. I wanted to "tell" you this somehow before we graduated and moved away.
I also know because I know you, that now that you might not consider me your friend you will see me as other people look at me and you will get the same perception they get: "eddie's such a dick".
With all my heart, I thank you for giving me some of the best memories of my life, and some of the longest laughs.
I love you, Nydia.